I should have stayed in gymnastics… or ballet, or tap, or jazz.
I should have chosen a smaller instrument to play; the flute, clarinet, or since I HAD to play a double-reed instrument, the oboe.
I should have saved more of my toys…Right, Barbie?
I should be more positive.
I should have tried to make more friends.
I should have been nicer to my family…not calling them ‘sickly’ one day in high school…
I should have written A LOT more
I should have listened to more music…”Nirvana who?” seriously until 1998-ish.
I should have tried out for cross-country my senior year.
I probably should have stayed in band, even though it felt like I was cheating on my old band.
I know I should have continued playing the bassoon.
I shouldn’t have said that.
I should have been more open to trying new things A LOT sooner.
I shouldn’t have done that.
I shouldn’t have dated that guy.
I should have applied to more colleges.
I should really finish Tucker’s baby blanket.
I should have tried a little harder to make Purdue work.
I should have tried a little harder.
I probably shouldn’t have gotten that extra BA.
I should have taught more than just summer lit.
I should forgive.
I should eat more vegetables.
I should travel more.
I should lose weight.
I should read more books.
I should get outside more.
I should have suggested looking at more houses.
I should buy more cloth diapers. We have 20.
I should be a better kitteh mommy. They need play time and cuddles just like Tucker.
There’s a lot that I should have done and that I should do. While, obviously, I cannot change the choices I’ve made in the past, they can help me to adjust the way I am doing things now. If’ I’ve learned anything, it’s that everything you do and everyone you meet, you do so for a purpose. I wouldn’t be the person–wife, mother, daughter, niece, friend–I am today without my experiences. And with those experiences, I know that I need to be a better person–wife, mother, daughter, niece, friend. I’m trying. I will continue to do so.
With all my ‘shouldas’ I need to mention that:
I’m GLAD I married this guy.
I’m so happy to have this baby.
I love the friends I have, the family I have.
I’m glad I went to Korea; even though it was tough. And scary. And unfamiliar.
I’m lucky for the jobs I’ve had and the one I have now.
I value my education.
Yeah… these lists could go on and on…